5th April 2009
Today is wifey’s 25th birthday. Wifey is in Bali now with his family and I missed him very badly. Singapore is raining most of the time and I wonder if weather in Bali is sunny and hot for wifey to tour around of it is like the weather here.
Sometimes I am really upset. I know wifey does not have auto-roam and he needs to concentrate on his trip with his family. But seriously when he did not call or even send me an sms it makes me worried and scared. Afterall I am not able to know if something happened to him. It is almost similar when he was in Cambodia until I sent him a very unhappy and unfriendly sms to remind him to sms me at least once a day.
I am supposed to be celebrating with wifey on his special day today but somehow I am not able to because we are miles apart from each other. I do not know what is wrong with me but I am just feeling so depressed. Until now, I still do not know how much I meant to wifey in his life. Sometimes he gave me the feeling that I am just another phase and another partner that’s all… I can be there and he will be happy and if I am not there so be it…
Maybe it all started when I allowed him to go Cambodia. Now he form so closed relationships with his Cambodia trip friends they call themselves Ben10 and I felt that I lost a part of him which I will never be able to recover…
And now to make things worse, his cousin and spouse is going to stay at his place for the time being, maybe forever in fact and I will not be able to visit him or spend a night with him at his home again. Even though he had brought up the pros and cons but somehow I felt that the cons seems to be on the higher grounds.
Today is wifey’s 25th birthday…
Today is also a depressing day for me…
Today is definitely a day filled with tears and sadness…
Today is wifey’s 25th birthday. Wifey is in Bali now with his family and I missed him very badly. Singapore is raining most of the time and I wonder if weather in Bali is sunny and hot for wifey to tour around of it is like the weather here.
Sometimes I am really upset. I know wifey does not have auto-roam and he needs to concentrate on his trip with his family. But seriously when he did not call or even send me an sms it makes me worried and scared. Afterall I am not able to know if something happened to him. It is almost similar when he was in Cambodia until I sent him a very unhappy and unfriendly sms to remind him to sms me at least once a day.
I am supposed to be celebrating with wifey on his special day today but somehow I am not able to because we are miles apart from each other. I do not know what is wrong with me but I am just feeling so depressed. Until now, I still do not know how much I meant to wifey in his life. Sometimes he gave me the feeling that I am just another phase and another partner that’s all… I can be there and he will be happy and if I am not there so be it…
Maybe it all started when I allowed him to go Cambodia. Now he form so closed relationships with his Cambodia trip friends they call themselves Ben10 and I felt that I lost a part of him which I will never be able to recover…
And now to make things worse, his cousin and spouse is going to stay at his place for the time being, maybe forever in fact and I will not be able to visit him or spend a night with him at his home again. Even though he had brought up the pros and cons but somehow I felt that the cons seems to be on the higher grounds.
Today is wifey’s 25th birthday…
Today is also a depressing day for me…
Today is definitely a day filled with tears and sadness…
“Happy 25th Birthday Wifey Shaari”
“I Love You”
“Always”
Hubby Roger
