Home with wifey - Day 3 & 4

Day 3 with wifey was short as I need to leave his house by 6.15am to go for retreat. It was suppose to be a nice morning but stupid things crop up.

Firstly, I forgot to bring my passport and thus I have to take a cab all the way back to Hougang and then back to Tenah Merah Ferry Terminal. Stupid right? Wasted more than twenty dollars on cab fare when it could have been free. Luckily throughout this stupid episode wifey is there to console me and make me feel better else I will really go crazy with this rushing episode.

When I am finally back from the retreat, I feel so damn happy. On the way back in the ferry I started to receive sms-es from wifey saying how much he misses me and loves me. It really warms my heart to the core.

Once I reached wifey’s house, we immediately hug each other tightly and kiss. It has only been one and a half days but it seems like eternity for me and I really feel so happy to see wifey as I miss him so, so much during the retreat.

After kissing and hugging we watched TV together. Wifey lie on my thigh while I slowly run my fingers through his hair. It felt good to be with my wifey again. We got hungry but both of us are lazy to go get food, so we ordered KFC. We ate together and wifey aroused me totally throughout the whole day with his sexy underwear.

He first wore the jockstrap that we bought recently, and then he changed into g-string and walked around the house whole day with just the g-string. Gosh!!!

After dinner, we watched TV and tease each other sexually to create the mood for later making-love. Well, tonight wifey is definitely in the mood and so am I. Thus, it’s not long before we proceed to the bed and start to fondle each other.

We did not make-love. We wanted to but then wifey felt painful when I penetrate him. He did not know why and I did not understand why too. Again, because of sex, wifey was feeling upset and I felt depressed. Wifey felt useless that he cannot even satisfy me in bed and honestly I am not satisfied. It is somehow true since he did not like to oral me, and then he cannot take my dick up his ass, it was practically a one-way sexual experience.

As much as I hate to say but I am really not getting my sexual needs fulfilled. Wifey is the only one that I am going to have sex with all my life from now on and I do not know how to deal with this problem. He is in pain, thus I cannot force him as I can sense that he is not enjoying (he is not hard when I fuck him). What is making love if I fucked and he only feels pain? I guess I will have to go through my life most of the time jerking off instead of making love. Maybe it is all my fault. I am not a good top as I think I am. I am just another useless husband that brings my wifey Pain rather than Pleasure.

Well, in the end, we both jerk off and then go to sleep. I have to leave the house early morning tomorrow since MIL will be back in the morning and it will not be nice to be caught by her that I am staying overnights.

In the early morning, I woke up, showered, packed my stuff and wrote my wifey a note. He was sleeping very soundly and I hate to wake him up to disturb his sleep. Mostly, I cannot stand saying goodbye to him face-to-face knowing that I will miss him immediately when the door closes.

“I will always Love You Wifey Shaari.”
“Thank you for hosting me all these nights.”
Hubby Roger

Home with Wifey - Day 2

Woke up early together with wifey as he needs to reach school by 9.00 am. Wifey proceed to shower while I prepare breakfast for both of us. After I am done then I showered in the kitchen toilet since there’s hot water there.

Wifey’s schedule is until 2.00pm today thus I had made plans to clear my time-off to keep him company after school. We took the MRT to school as we missed the bus to Tampines interchange. The trip is long and we did not get any seats till we are at City Hall. It has been a long time since I get to send wifey to school. It feels good to be wifey’s chaperon.

We were pretty early anyway and after wifey is in class I headed back to my workplace. Met Linda and JP along the way though. Even though my workplace is not really near from NYP, I managed to reach before 9.30am. Work was relaxing for the day as we’ll be going for retreat tomorrow. Did some last minute preparation for the retreat and also clear up some of my work. By around 1.00pm I am done with all I need to do for the day and left the office for NYP again. Need to fetch my wifey after his class.

After meet-up with wifey, we were still unsure what to do since we both do not wish to just go home so early. We went AMK hub since the newspapers indicated that there is movie timing at 3.30pm but the counter mentioned that it is a wrong printing by the papers.

Feeling hungry and irritated, wifey suggested heading to Downtown East to have my lunch as well as to catch the movie there instead. So, off we go in cabby to our next destination.

Managed to eat the chicken that we both like in the Korean chicken restaurant and also get the tickets for the movie we want to watch. It’s a horror movie based on a true ritual in Thailand when people want to change their bad luck into good. The show has many scary scenes and wifey grabbed me tightly throughout the show. I like that feeling.

After the movie ended, we took our time to go back home and rest. I had planned to make-love with wifey tonight although we made love yesterday already. However, wifey’s not in the mood and we even had a little argument on this. Feels so stupid that sex is always something that we have to argue about when we both want to be happy in each other’s company.

Wifey had suggested to try making love in the morning but I know I won’t enjoy as he will not kiss that much and definitely there will be no oral sex performed on me, which I really miss a lot. Somehow, both our moods are bad for the night and we just try to sleep it off. Hope everything will be better tomorrow.

“Wifey Shaari, I Love You.”
Hubby Roger

Home with Wifey - Day 1

MIL is going KL over the weekend, thus me and wifey will be staying together at his house to look after each other. It is a really anticipating week for me as I really, really miss the days whereby there are only two of us in the house.

On Thursday 23rd October, I carried a big bag filled with clothing to work. The bag gets heavier at work as I also need to bring some logistics back when I go for company retreat this Saturday. Worse of all, I have to bring my youths for tattoo removal in the afternoon at Bukit Batok carrying that bag. My shoulders are aching terribly by the time I reached the clinic.

It gets more frustrating when there is a long queue of patients, thus me and my youths waited about an hour before we are given the attention for them to do the laser session. By the time the sessions ended, it was near to 4.00pm and I am feeling tired and hungry. Still has to go NTUC with my bag to buy the prizes for staff retreat. By the time I reached the MRT stations, I am super hands-full already and yet still have to stand for one plus hours in the train. When I finally reached wifey’s house, I am really super tire and felt so glad to be able to put down my things and rest on wifey’s bed.

Wifey had invited his classmates over his place also and they are watching DVDs in the living room. I did not really interact with them since I do not have any topics to chat with them. Stayed mostly in the room except for dinner and only went out at the later part of the night when only one girl is left in the living room.

When all of them are gone, I am so happy as that is the only time I am totally alone with wifey and it’s really a two persons’ world. There is more freedom to kiss and hug my sweet wifey finally. It is not everyday that I got the chance to kiss and hug wifey for minutes and hours and I am not going to let this chance slip away so easily.

It is really amazing how two persons who are in love with one another can enjoy the time to just lie down and watch TV together. Sometimes, wifey will watch Suria channel and I will watch with him, sometimes he switched to Channel 8 or Channel U to watch Chinese programmes with me. At times, Channel 5 also so that we both can have something to talk about the programme.

Having wifey with me by my side has been the warmest feelings throughout the day. The aching, the tiring, the irritating wait all seem nothing now when I am lying side by side to my wifey and hearing him breathe, hearing him talk and tasting his sweet lips… he is my EVERYTHING.

“Wifey Shaari, my Love for You Never Ends.”
Hubby Roger

New Neighbour

Today is a long day as I am having flu and the air-con in the training room at SSTI is treating everyone like overseas-flown-in air pork, trying it's best to chill us out to the maximum. All I can think of at that point of time is the warmth that I lacked from hugging my lovely wifey and his sweet lips that makes me tinkle in my heart.

Well, both me and wifey did not plan to go gym as his arms are aching and I doubt he will be able to wait for me while i gym and shower. Thus, we decided to meet but no concrete plans were made till we met up.

The course ended slightly early today and everyone was out of the classroom by 5.00 pm. I managed to catch the train early and head to YCK to meet wifey. After meeting up, we had decided to have Jap food for dinner as wifey had a sudden craving for it. We took bus 72 and head for Century Square. However, we alight at Festival Market instead as wifey said he had never been there and would like to walk around to see the place. There is also Jap food there so his craving can be settled.

After the food, we procced to take a little walk at the NTUC above to get some stuff he needs before we took a cab home. Before we can get a cab, we were having a little conversation.

Basically, he recently chatted on msn with a so call old friend he made last time in IRC chatline. According to him, this friend he knew a long time ago, even before he knows Sri. The name of the guy is Robin and both of them might be meeting up sometime soon to catch up.

I had bad experience with people named Robin, okay not exactly me. Well, after I am together with wifey, POS(my ex) got to know a guy whose name is also Robin and many times, POS had tried to make me feel jealous purposely talking about how great a guy loves him and that guy is Robin also. He even show me a picture of Robin. I would describe Robin as fair, and lean guy with a really straight look. Also with neat hair-cut and wear specs, making him look like the goody-guy that studies a lot and those that will make it to the scholar kind.

Honestly, I find Robin better looking than me and at that point of time when POS show me Robin’s picture, I get the feeling that any guy, if given a choice to choose between Robin and Roger, I would be the one not chosen. That is my impression of Robin. So, why is the experience bad? I was not jealous of POS cos my heart at that point of time beats for Shaari only. I was happy for POS that he found someone he described as great and love him. However, just about 2 weeks later, POS contacted me and told me that Robin has been ignoring him after he loan Robin S$1,000.

I am not going to help POS in money issue but I advised him on possible actions to recuperate his money. I do not care or bother if he carried out the actions but I guess my part as a counseller or friend is done for that session. In the end, I do not know what is the outcome but my impression of Robin changed totally.

Well, I am not sure if they are the same Robin as both are younger and that Robin obviously had a thing for meaty guys. What annoys me is that this Robin that wifey knew previously told wifey that he should gym and eat and become stocky so that he will be hot in the market as stocky people are the catch in the gay circle nowadays.

I started to ask wifey if he is okay not to meet this Robin guy and wifey almost replied me immediately that he is going to meet Robin regardless I approve or not. I felt kind of upset although I know that my request is stupid. Wifey would never fall for Robin. The upsetting part is that he did not even think twice about it and he just choose a friend whom did not contact him for long, an irc friend who he knows will make me feel discomfort if he meet, and that seems more important than me. Keeping the friend is more important than making me feel comfortable and happy.

Was I selfish? I did not think so. I am going to be the one taking care of him, loving him, giving my heart of soul to him. What is this irc friend of his going to give him? Happy time once in a while to catch up??? And he chose that over me?? Where is the priority in this relationship heading?? I wondered.

When he tried to further explain I am really no longer in the mood to listen. I cannot understand why he cannot just put my feelings above someone who is not of any importance in his life. Losing that friend does not make his life any less fulfilled since they did not contact for years.

Wifey sensed my unhappiness and inside the cab, he said he will not meet Robin then, but his tone tells me when he said that, it is not out of loving me but sort of no choice since I made him do it. I was totally pissed and replied him that he decide and everything is up to him. I really do not know what to tell him. I may look selfish in people’s eyes but I am fighting for my love. And if that is considered selfish, I will be selfish. But I am hurt more on the fact that he seem to treasure an irc friend more than my feelings.

He tried to change the topic in the cab asking me permission if he can go swimming in NYP with his classmates. Can I say no?? Stupid right?? He asked before and I told him I prefer him to swim with singlet and not showing his chest off to people. He told me before that it cannot be done so in swimming pool, no singlet allowed and yet he asked again. Honestly, I do not care anymore. Why should I bother and care so much when he obviously want something his way.

After that he asked me if he can stay overnight for chalet in December with his class. Again, can I disallow? I have no proper reason to even though. Maybe I should learn to let go more instead of holding him so tightly.

He told me that he is not using nipple tape tonight. His chest is growing and he is kind of proud of it and felt that NT is no longer required. Fine, so be it as long as it was not shown off to others. I do not want to disallow every single thing he told me.

The night was tiring for me. I only slept like 2 hours last night. I am really tire to reason out things with him because of my own uncomfort to his doings. Inside the lift, we kissed and hug and he told me he was sorry and will not do anything that makes me unhappy. I know he refer to Robin’s case but I am already not interested to interfere. However, I appreciate him telling me that. I’ll just wait and see if he can do what he says.

Wifey's new neighbour just move in today and the kids are caught by MIL trying to steal wifey's flip-flops. This irritates wifey a lot as he will have to keep all his shoes in the house. Well, guess it will take some time before wifey and MIL can get used to this new family. Good Luck to wifey and hope he can exercise more precautions.

Before I sleep, I received an sms from him. A very sweet sms saying that I am being missed. A simple sms, a small gesture, but it means a big thing to me.

“Wifey Shaari, I do things not for selfishness but becos I Love You.”
Hubby Roger

Sleepless Nite

Today is 21st October 2008. All my previous posts are rather late as I did not managed to have the time and energy to do a proper posting of the blog. Well, from this post onwards, I will try my best to give up-to-date updates.

I am sleepless. I am not thinking but I cant sleep. I am going to fall sick very soon if this continues. There seem to be endless obstacles along the path that me and wifey agreed to walk down together. Why is it so difficult for two persons who love each other to have a life of their own with each other?

What am I upset or unhappy about? I am not sure myself. I used to be a happy-go-lucky person. Where is the happy Roger nowadays? I seem to have changed a lot. Well, maybe people do mad things and get upset over stupid things when they are in love.

1. Trevvy IRC Chat

I know wifey used to chat in Trevvy last time. That's how I met him. I never had good impression of IRC as mostly are seeking sex. When I chat IRC last time, I used to think I can make friends but I know it is not possible after a few years. People that talked nicely at first ends up asking for cam-fun, of not then phone sex, some will ask to meet to fuck, while another group tends to try you out for possible relationship, as if I am a guinea pig. Although wifey always says that he knows he is just making fun of people and he is not having sex with anyone from IRC, i am still very uncomfortable with him chatting there.

Due to past experience, I now totally hate IRC. And I will NEVER believe friendship from IRC. In IRC, either you are looking for a fuck if not for a partner. And how many partners formed from IRC last? I hoped mine will and I hoped Wifey will understand that he means a lot to me and I will not allow any possible chance that may lose him to happen. I do not want to take things for granted anymore and certainly not wanting to take Shaari for granted.

He had exchanged his MSN with some chatters online in IRC. I say chatters because when I talked to him about it, he mentioned that "those" he added are those he trusted. Can we really trust people from IRC nowadays? I do not at all and this is bothering me. No doubt wifey also told me he can change his msn email anytime but I know he won't at all. Why?? Simple, his ideaology is always that he did nothing wrong, so why must he change. Most importantly, the hassle of imforming everyone of the change?? I know he won't change this at all. And this bothers me when I know there are people in his msn list are from IRC chat.

2. SEX

Making-Love of fucking, or having sex, whatever we call it. I am lost. I am really lost. Wifey's sensitive spots i knew very well by now. I also know what to do to arouse him and make him high and most importantly satisfy his sexual needs. How about mine?

There are many things I hope to do with wifey in bed. Other than me sucking his nipples and giving him the high, I wanna him to suck my cock as deep as he can too. I really miss the feeling of being deepthroat. I know wifey can do it if the position is right, but he never like to do that position.

Also, I never will know when is the best time to fuck. Sometimes, he can endure the fuck and said it's nice when I am slightly rough and fast. Sometimes he keep saying pain halfway through and I had to end up jerking off. I am a TOP, and honestly the feeling of fucking halfway and have to stop to jerk off sucks big time. I do want to hurt wifey since he is in pain but I do not understand the logic that sometimes he is not painful at all even when we fucked twice within a few hours. Recently he keeps saying it's painful when I fuck him halfway. I am really disrupted with that as the climatic feeling just drain off in a second. He may say I have a big cock, but I know that it is average size and I am mostly going slow to suit him.

I really miss our very first fucking session when I can just plump him from behind fast and hard with him moaning for more. His ass should be getting used to my cock after fucking so many times and not getting tighter or smaller but somehow he is just in pain. I can't bear to see him in pain. I think I also do not deserve to be always cumming through jerking off. I am troubled.

3. His Room

He just told be the night before that his uncle and aunty are in financial crisis and hoped to stay in his house for a year. MIL is still thinking but should they be staying, his room will be given to them. This greatly upset him and me. All his privacy is gone. And with extra members in the family, the chance of me going over is really ZERO!!! Because of this, he was rather agitated and just blow his top on me when I offered him possible solutions. Well, guess this is something not within my abilities to help since I do not own or stay in the house.

I know it is not easy for him too and I just want to be supportive for him should his uncle and aunty came over to stay for a year. That 1 year is going to be rough for both of us and I must try my very very best to give in to him and sayang him.

The time now is 3.05am, been writing this blog since like 12.30am after i toss and turn and cant get to sleep. Been crying also when typing. I do not know why I am crying. Am I not happy? Am I not in a relationship with someone I love? I do not know the answer to why I cry. I know that i am in a relationship with someone I love dearly. I never love someone so deeply before and never had felt this feeling so intensely before. I know Shaari is the one person I love and I am happy to be in a relationship with him. But I am crying and I do not know why......

"Wifey Shaari, you are the person I loved the most in my whole life."

Hubby Roger

Email

Below is the first email I received from Wifey on 28th September.

TO...........
HUBBY
ROGER ONG

I MISS U SOOOOO MUCH.............................
seriously u r the first ever person that make me feels this way...when i did not receive ur morning sms i will be grumpy......when u did not call or msg for at least 2hrs i feel so lost and if i neve recieve any call i will be depress............whatz more if i did not get to see u i feel so down there r times that i just want to take a cab and go all the way to ur house just to say that i love u and give u a nite nite kiss but then u should know the reason that stop me.......and this reason also make u thinks that i have not sayang u enough or have not care :( am talking bout my mum......u know how paranoid she can get or how sneaky she is right but she is still my mum so I AM REALLY REALLY SORIE........u always ask me why i choose u??? the thing is like the saying goes 'u don't choose them.......they choose u' :) to tell u the truth during the first few mths of our relationship i am not sure bout it..........i got my reservation coz i'm not sure wat i want myself..........but u were there........u put in the effort and i can see how sincere u r and not only me even my GERLFRENZ tells me tat........and u have got their chop of approval and wif flying colours and as u know their opinion and say is very important to me........remember wat SRI said when she came over to break fast with us when we were painting the house??? "now i don't have to worry bout sheri coz he have found THE ONE, so i can concentrate on my love life" tatz big.......as time pass u manage to melt my cold heart and i have not been open bout my feeling to anyone before of course i do abit but not the whole. I LOVE U because U LOVE ME for who i am u never try to change me and u respect me as a person........u never stop me from doing things that i like mainly CLUBBING.....u help me and support me all the way especially when i started school........without u there i don't think tat i will get A VERY GOOD RESULT yeah of course i will do good but not as good coz i know that u r also in it and i should not dissappoint u............in the past when u were talking bout getting a house and staying together i am very very scared and if u realised am always quite when we talk bout tis topic BUT now i can see our future together.........i can imagine staying whole my life with u ....waking up with u by my side making u breakfast and cook for u then waiting for u to get home and whenever i think bout it i am very excited.....i have a secret actually i have been secretly planning for our wedding hehehehe mentally lah been checking through websites and checking out youtube for some commitment ceremony clip........hehehehe right now i'm at ease with u and u r part of my life too and if u notice my mum so far have been better with u around the house or me going out with u so tis are good sign for our future.....so to make tis work u have to stop me when i make a mistake i know i can be strong headed most of the time but tatz me.......i have my own mind and not afraid to speak them out and most of the time we ended up arguing bout it hehehe and i think the arguing part have to tone down abit.....i have been trying to give and take.......am trying very very hard now so i really hope u can bear with it K hubby............i am trying very hard to change........not totally just enough to be a good wifey so pls help me along the way coz i know i can't do it myself........and there times that i may seem to be abit rude or outspoken i am really really sorie hubby.......if u find something tat is bothering u pls don't keep it to urself coz in a relationship we must be open bout everything especially felling and must keep the communication going coz once the communication is dead the whole relationship will crumble.........i know u are not vocal and u express urself through e-mails and letters AND i'm more vocal and i don't know how to express my felling by writing it down so we must sometimes work abit harder to make things work okiez..........coz when i'm talking u are silent and i get very irritated and on ur side u complaint that i never write u any letter or e-mails and guess u r irritated too hehehehe am sorie i know i have not put in much effort so this e-mail shall be a start okiez............but watever happens u must know that I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL TILL DEATH DO US PART......................i am really sorie if i ever have break ur heart or makes u feel down, irritate u or even making u cry........hubby we must work very very hard together to make tis wonderful and fabulous relationship works okiez.....promise me........u have my word or i will be struck by lightning hehehe :)

FROM UR..........
WIFEY
SHAARI B SAPARI

MSN

Few days ago, while on msn with wifey, I noticed that wifey's msn had no picture of himself. When asked, he mentioned that he was looking through the pictures and want to change it to a nicer one. Then he said that he wanted to choose a picture of us and put it up to tell everyone I am his hubby.

No one can guess or know the feeling I felt when I read on msn what he said. I was totally happy and felt really appreciated and treasured. Anticipated for the picture to upload and keep wondering which one will he choose.

Two days later, after logging on to msn and initiated a conversation with wifey, I noticed that the msn pic he put up is himself. I asked him about our pic and all I got is "hehehe" and a smiley face. My feeling at that time :"Kill me instead"

Days later again, I borrowed car from brother at night and thus get to keep it till next day which happens to be a sunday. Thus, me and wifey went gym at one george st. After that, we head to chinatown as he wanted to see sexy underwear to wear for me. We bought a new jockstrap for him.

We proceed to have lunch and head to my place since he had not visited my mum for a long time. Although we are at my place, we remain in my room. I did not expect him to talk to mother as he is still new to the family. Well, there is more privacy in my room anyway and he tried on the jockstrap we just bought.

I was very very aroused since I had not make love with him for some time and he is really turning me on. However, things become anti-climatic when he told his mum that he will be home soon as he was at the tampines interchange. And this was said before he enter my house. Thus, we did not have any fun. My mood was really getting to the edge.

That same night while on msn I totally just feel upset. It is almost like a quarrel with wifey when he noticed about my unhappiness and probe me to tell him why. It is really stupid cos I know I love him a lot and these stupid arguements will cause both of us unhappiness.

I am only human, as much as wifey wanted attention and love and trust, I also need that affirmation from him. It may be only a small thing but it is the small things in life that makes things more memorable. At that moment, putting up a pic in his msn of us is something I felt appreciated and he never do it when he said he will. Making time for love-making is another thing I felt important. I really felt un-satisfied for a long time.

I really don't know what I should do as telling wifey all these and elaborating more of my feelings just kind of make me feel like I am over demanding. But how about my needs?? Who is going to really satisfy my needs? Wifey is trying, and I know, but is this going to go on like that? I do not know when is the time that we can make-love without him feeling painful halfway. As much as i try to satisfy him, I need him to satisfy me too. Afterall, he is going to be the one and only man that I entrust my love to. I can't make love with others, even if people says using condom is safe. I do not want to endanger him in any way and cause him any suffering. Guess there is nothing much I can do to improve this situation.

"Wifey Shaari, You are the One and Only person I will Make-Love to cos I really Love You."

Hubby Roger

Jalan Raya

This year, wifey had arranged to go jalan raya with Yazid and his CGH colleagues. I was invited to follow him and if possible get car from my brother as we are going many places.

Getting car from my brother has been difficult. He does not entertain early booking and even though I requested the night before with a note, he had ignored me totally. I had to wait for him to be back home around 3 plus in the afternoon before he responded. By then, wifey and Yazid had reached their first destination.

I managed to reach the first place after about 30 minutes drive inclusive of losing of way. The place is nice and laksa was served. However, we did not stay long as there are a few places to visit.

We head to the 2nd location soon with some of his CGH friends. I also forgot whom we visited since I am pretty bad with names. As for the location, I totally cannot remember as there are so many turns here and there. One thing that impressed me is the decorations and also the food served by the Malay families. The food is definitely great and their design for the house is really unique.

One of the stop was at Faridah’s house, whom is a close colleague of wifey. We also celebrated her daughter’s birthday at the same time. Both her daughters are cute and very sociable. She had taught and brought them up well. No wonder wifey also dotes on the two gals a lot.

The last stop was back at wifey’s house. They had planned to go PLAY again at the very last minute. Once again, I felt kind of irritated as wifey just happily plan without discussing with me if it is ok. I really do not wish for him to go as he just went like a week ago and we are both very broke this month. No doubt the cover charge is not expensive but still every single dollar saved means I get to eat my lunch which I will possibly miss for a few days.

I totally had no mood to go PLAY that night even though I have to be supportive for wifey to go. In the end, Wifey went with Yazid, Teddy, Faridah and Angela. I on the other hand waited in the car. I tried to sleep at first but guess my mood does not seem to side with this action. Ended up tossing and turning until almost 3.00 in the morning before I doze off.

I did not even hear my phone ring for many times when wifey called me. I am so asleep that I did not even know that I forgot to lock the door of the car and I am sleeping like a dead pig inside. I could easily be robbed!! I got a fright when the door suddenly opened and someone awoke me: WIFEY!! He had found my car after many calls unanswered.

Angela had gotten really high and started to talk nonsense, thus me and wifey sent her and Faridah back together. Yazid and Teddy stayed to club till the end. Am honestly very very tire and was having problem concentrating on the road. Felt relieve when Angela and Faridah finally reached home safely and continue to send wifey home. I am honestly very horny that night too but I guess there is no chance for me to make-love with wifey. Everything seems to be in a rush.

“Wifey, I LOVE YOU, VERY VERY MUCH”
“I MISS YOU too, VERY VERY MUCH”
Hubby Roger

PLAY finally

After a month long of endurance, finally wifey and his sisters planned a date to go PLAY together. I had also asked Matthew and Pamela along since they both had known I am gay and they are also keen to meet my wifey. Further more, Pam’s husband is back in Singapore for a week before they fly off for holidays and he’s also joining us.

As usual, I had planned to go in PLAY earlier so that I can save money on the entrance fee, but people are always late, late, late. This is getting irritating as I am already pretty broke for the month. Well, did not bother to think much as I want to have a good time with wifey.

While waiting for Pam and her husband in the MRT, me and wifey met Jules and started the hugs and kisses. It has been a long long time since we met Jules and he got great hair (wig). When Pam arrived we proceed inside PLAY and watch an underwear model show by a few good bodies, and so call cute or handsome models. Well, I know wifey most likely won’t fall in love with them, but I really don’t appreciate him screaming when he saw a hot model. It kinds of show disrespect to me and I honestly detest that actions. It’s not that I want him to keep in his heart but to express it out in such intense manner is really rude to me. Nonetheless, I had to swallow this unhappiness else the whole night would be spoilt by me.

When wifey’s sisters arrived, we started to introduce to each other. Brendan and Jules were very obviously over Matthew. Matthew on the other hand will not like them as much since he does not prefer feminine man. Pam and her husband seem bored as the music is not that nice for the start. It took some time before everyone is warm up and started taking lots of pictures and dancing around. However, Matthew, Pam and her husband left pretty early, can see that they are not used to PLAY.

After everything, wifey and I together with the rest but we headed to my place as he can’t go home. We spent a nice night hugging each other to sleep on my bed. This is the first time for past 14 months plus that I really managed to hug him to sleep for a few hours. Previously, he would toss and turn around within 30 minutes, making it impossible to hug him to sleep. Hope this will happen more often.

“Shaari Wifey, I don’t know if you can understand or feel the intensity of the love I have for you, but it is there.”
“Hope someday, you can love me with all your heart and soul.”
“I know you are still having some reserves, but I will wait for the day that you will love me whole-heartedly”
Hubby Roger

Fasting Month - September

The month of September is the Ramadan month for the Muslim culture. According to my wifey, this is the most important event for the year before their Hari Raya Puasa. Ramadan is the monthe when muslim fast from morning till night. This fasting is to help them cleanse their sins so that they can go to the better place after life. This fasting will start exactly one month before their Hari Raya Puasa.

I asked a few malay friends of mine if during this Ramadan period they are allowed to make-love. All of them told me they are not allow during fasting but after break-fast at night there are allowed. Even though they are allowed, they have to clean up thoroughly after that in some ritual way as a form of cleansing.

However, wifey told me that whatever they said are limited to legally-married couples only and since wifey only signed the marriage certificate I designed without any legal authorization, we do not fall under the “able to make-love” category. Also, kissing and hugging or any form of body contact and intimacy are also not advisable during fasting hours.

Well… basically, our love actions for this month has been reduced to a minimum. Our intimacy also greatly cut-down. Our love grows stronger and deeper though when we go through this endurance period. We understand how much we felt for each other, the love, the respect, and the needs.

The major thing that really happen during this month is the painting of wifey’s house. MIL had suggested wifey to paint the house(living room) and after discussion, wifey chose two shades of brown for the house. The process is tiring as we had to rush it through during the weekend. There has to be two coatings so that the previous colour can be uniformly covered. This is also the only time I spent together with wifey and MIL under the same roof for more than 12 hours a day for 2 days.

The first day was rather okay till the evening when MIL went over to wifey’s aunty house for dinner. Wifey invited Sri over and I had no idea at all. Was just hoping to have private times with him since I did not really get a lot of time to be alone with him for this month. Somehow, Sri’s appearance made me moody. Not that I am unfriendly but felt that Wifey could have discussed with me instead of just arranging it the last minute and then just inform me of his actions.

After the house is done, I also arranged wifey and his cousin Jim to pick up a set of donated sofa. The colouor of the sofa is brown which matches the colour of the newly painted living room. Further more, the sofa set is very new and thus it helps MIL to save some spending on new furniture. Overall, wifey is pleased with the house and the new furniture. I am also pleased as I am of use to my wifey and able to let him live slightly more comfortably in his house.

"Wifey Shaari, My Love for You stays Strong and True."

"I hope that Your Love for Me will Be Strong and True too."

Hubby Roger

Anniversary Celebration @ Swissotel The Stamford

12th August 2008 is me and wifey’s One Year Anniversary since wee got married. Of course it is not the legal marriage procedure since Singapore does not allow same-gender marriages. It is an agreement between me and wifey to be married to each other through signing of a self-designed marriage certificate.

Very fast, one year had past. As wifey is not free on the 12th August, we had agreed to postpone the celebration of our anniversary to the 16th August. With the assistance from a gay friend of mine, we had managed to secure a room at Swissôtel The Stamford. The room is located on the 55th storey. It is the “Grand Room” in the hotel, consisting of a bedroom with queen size bed, a living room with sofa, TV and study table, as well as two balconies. It is considered a luxury room for two people to stay and the usual price would be about S$400.00 exclusive of GST and service charge. With the help of my gay friend, we only paid S$176.55 at the end of the day for the room.

I had arranged to meet my friend earlier to see if the hotel can allow me to check-in earlier. And luckily, I managed to check-in at around 1300 hrs instead of 1430 hrs. My friend accompanied me up to see the room as he had not been into the Grand Room before. He did not stay long though as he did not want to hold up my time with my wifey for our celebration. After he left, I immediately changed into the green skimpy underwear wifey bought and just wrapped myself up in the bathrobe waiting for my lovely wifey to show up. However, he called me and asked me to go down to meet him to buy food, thus the plan to arouse him was postponed.

Wifey had actually arrived earlier than me and saw me and my friend together. He had gone to suntec in hope to buy sexy underwear to wear it later to arouse me too. Too bad, there is no nice and sexy underwear available, thus I become the one arousing him at the end of the day. Once back in the room, we started to explore the room together, taking pictures of the views from the top and also the different angles of the room. We were very happy to get this room and are already anticipating the fun and enjoyment we are going to have.

We get into the mood slowly and soon we were kissing each other and hugging passionately. All these intimacy and foreplay last for sometime before we got totally naked and horny. There is lots of oral sex and we totally enjoy ourselves in each other’s embrace. My mouth was all over his nipples, doing everything possible with my tongue, lips and teeth while wifey had my manhood, hard and solid in his mouth. When we were both at the peak, it’s time to join as one and I started to insert my manhood into wifey’s love tunnel.

We were making love all over the hotel room from the long sofa, to the bed in various positions, then to the study table and back to sofa and then end up in bed finally again. It was a terrific session and “good” is not good enough to describe it. It’s better than good. Finally, we both had to release our inner desire and I released mine totally and fully into my wifey’s body while wifey released his onto his body. Thereafter, we just lie down on each other and hug and kiss and enjoy the warmth in the cold air-conditioned hotel room before we proceed to have shower together in the bathtub.



After a sensational shower together with wifey in the bathtub, we simply just laze in the hotel room waiting for the nightfall. Wifey also started his revision for his upcoming examination on Monday while I literally fell asleep on the sofa. It was until night when I woke up and we go out to hunt for some food together. Thereafter we prepare ourselves for a good night sleep, not forgetting to take pictures of the beautiful night view from our room before we hug each other to sleep.

Finally, it's the next day morning. Wifey and me knew we will be leaving the hotel room in the next few hours and we had so muchloving time together that we can't bear to leave. I bought breakfast from Cafe Cartel and we eat together in the room. Thereafter, we make-love again and took some pictures of us in the action. When we are done, we went for one last shower together and started packing up for home.

I really enjoy the 2D1N stay with my wifey and I hope we get to do this more often in the future. Am really wishing to have my own house and stay with my wifey now.

" Love You With ALL My HEART & SOUL, Wifey Shaari"

Hubby Roger

9th August 2008 - National Day

Wifey had signed up wth his school to do volunteer work for this year's National Day Parade. Basically, he volunteered as an usher and he's in-charge of the Green Sector sitting arrangement for NDP08.

Many saturdays were burnt because of NDP and those saturdays I did not get to spend time with wifey because he would be really tire after a whole afternoon of volunteering work. Initially, he was pretty bad-tempered when i met him after his first NDP08 - NE programme for primary school kids. Tired and hunger made him unhappy and it was vented on me when i met him at night after his volunteering work. There after, he became more and more nicer after each session when he gotten use to the schedule and know how to deal with those kids and their teachers, and also the army guys whom he claimed as "brainless".

I had never been to a real NDP parade before. Never have the luck to get the tickets. This year, due to wifey's volunteering hard work, he was given a ticket to the show and he gave it to me. He managed to get extra two tickers but one of them is of a different sector. So total he got 2 tickets for green sector and 1 ticket for blue sector. I thus invited my army good friend aka my insurance agent Damian to the show with me.

On that day, Damian and me bought donuts, subway bread and drinks to the parade. Wifey had instructed me to collect the goodie pack for him using the blue ticket and thus I had to queue two times to get both the blue and green sector goodie pack. Many people were late although me and Damian are not that early as well. We were ushered to a pretty good seat at the far side of the area near to the stair-way. The weather is cooling with light drizzling but that did not dampen the atmosphere at all.

As usualy, the parade started off with the marching of the different defence forces in Singapore, then performances by kids, different ethnic races etc. Of course the most eye-catching performance is the F-16s fly-past doing different stunts. It's like a trademark for NDP annually. But must really comment the amazing skills of those pilots. The whole show ended with fireworks, really nice for a small country like Singapore.

There was also a post-parade party hosted by George Leong from St James Power Station after the end of the parade to continue the celebration. The music was great and many of the performers stayed back to dance and party like it was an open-area clubbing scene.

After everything ended, wifey stayed back to help clear up the area as well as doing phototaking with the other volunteers. Damian had left and I was left to walk around waiting for wifey. By the time he ended it was way pass 2300hrs and I accompany wifey to his home before I head back to my own place to rest.

"Love You Forever Wifey Shaari"

Hubby Roger

Fitness First

It was the month of July when wifey talked to me about joining a fitness centre. I was in shocked when wifey called to discuss with me on this.

Firstly, my pay is not high and he is schooling, paying a monthly fee of more than 100 bucks can be pretty strainous on both of us financially.

Secondly, I read and heard many stories of gay guys picking up each other and having sexual encounters in the sauna and steam room of fitness centres. Kinda scary.

Thirdly, I had never believe in spending money to torture myself physically. Especially when I usually train my IPPT by jogging and doing exercise using the public facilities that are FOC.

When I voice out my concerns, wifey was disaapointed with me. Wifey has been putting on weight and his last measured Blood Pressure (BP) was slightly on the high side. Further more, there are family history of stroke cases due to high BP in his family line, thus he is worried for his own health.

Honestly, I didn't know that much as I only heard from him about his slight high BP measurement during his practical test when Nad took his BP. Other than that, all other information was not informed and I will never ever jeopadise my wife's health for money.

After knowing the seriousness about his health condition, I did not waste time to search through the internet for the different fitness centres and the packages they offer. I also called and arranged for appointments to meet the agents from various fitness centres to know in details of their offers. However, only Fitness First (FF) replied promptly. Me and wifey then went down to meet the agent together at Ang Mo Kio Hub.

The agent from FF is very friendly and gave us a clear explaination of the package they offered. Other than that, he also tried to waive off as much fee as possible, even the adminstration fee of new members after knowing wifey is a student. This greatly helps us to reduce our financial load for the first payment for the fitness centre.

Wifey and me had earlier discussed before we meet the agent and agreed that if the package is good, we will sign up on the spot. Many points were discussed such as the number of outlets, the accessibility of the various outlets, distance and location which much be of convenience to us as well as the type of classes they offered. FF is one of the most expensive fitness centre but I have to agree that the service, classes and convenience for me and wifey is really what we had wanted and expected. After a tour around the place and a final secret nod from wifey, we signed the forms and paid up.

Wifey and me are now officially members of Fitness First. :)

"Let's work out together and live healthily so that we can grow old together."

"I LOVE YOU WIFEY SHAARI"
Hubby Roger

Sri's 24th Birthday @ Majestic

It’s Sri’s 24th birthday and wifey had helped her to plan her birthday celebration at The Majestic Hotel located in Chinatown area. They had booked the Attic for a night which cost more than S$500.00 that night. Close friends of Sri’s and wifey’s were invited and the gang will be going to PLAY after the celebration. Wifey had earleir prepared Sri's birthday present by printing photos of their past hanging out and activities and paste those photos inside a box. The Stussy bag bought in Bali is then place inside together with the baju wifey bought for Sri as other presents.

The present that wifey prepared for Sri is very nice and touching. I really envy Sri as wifey had never designed any presents for me as yet. Till date, I only managed to get a birthday card he designed for my birthday. Maybe I should not asked for more but when I saw what he did for Sri, i felt very jealous and envy Sri.

Wifey and Sri had checked in to the hotel with Nana earlier in the afternoon to prepare the place. They sure had fun taking pictures and trying out the facilities in this hug and nice room. The room is a smaller version of a duplex as the bedroom is located at the top with a ladder leading to the bed. The whole room wise is great with TV of many channels, a separate shower room and wash room, and two big bath tubs between the shower and wash room. It is a nice design for couple to spend a romantic day together.

I was working and thus arrived only around 7.00 pm in the evening. Some of them had arrived. People such as Nana, Yana, and Sue were already there with wifey and they had been taking pictures, watching DVDs and having a good time. Drinks were also prepared there already. Vodkas, mixers, ices were all ready for guests coming in.

Wifey was the “bartender” for the night as he mixed the Vodka for everyone. His mixture is so strong that most of them had to add in more mixers to dilute the concentrated vodka. Wifey himself also got pretty high halfway during the party. Wifey starts talking more and more, louder and louder and also, his smile is wider. He also kiss me more in front of his friends which he don't usually do. Wonder if it's good thing or bad thing for him to get high.

When the time come for Sri to deliver a speech after watching a birthday video, wifey was practically cutting in most of the time to emphasize how close he is to Sri, the number of years they had known each other and the times they had together in ITE. Wifey is super-high.

Well, after changing and preparing, all of us head for PLAY. The hotel staff had warned us that not more than 2 persons should be in the hotel room after 11.00 pm and 3rd person onwards will have to pay a substancial fee to stay in the hotel room. Anyway, all of us were at PLAY except for a couple left behind to make-out in the room. More drinks were served and wifey was enjoying the night dancing away and drinking away.

As usual in PLAY, Yazid usually dance with Sri like they were on pills while wifey goes around snapping pictures. Appraently, wifey was specially hot and emotional when he got high and near to drunk. This is the first time wifey keep hugging and kissing me on the dance floor and it felt good. I love hugging and kissing my wifey a lot and it works fine for me.

Finally, Sri was drunk and was dragged to her room by some friends. By the time wifey and me left PLAY and arrived at the room, Sri was totally KO and Sue was taking care of her. Although no hotel staff said anything, we did not want to risk paying extras for the room. Me and wifey then left and got a cab to H81 at Kovan where we spent our last few hours together before daybreak.

"I Love You Wifey Shaari."

"I'll always remember how passionately you kissed me on that night."

Hubby Roger

Honeymoon @ Bali - Day 4

Today is the last day me and wifey will be staying in Bali. We felt kind of upset as we totally enjoy ourselves a lot during these few days. There are totally no disturbances from any friends or colleagues about work, most importantly, no disturbances from our families asking us what time reaching home. There are only us and us alone for the trip and it felt really great. Well, time to go breakfast and since it’s the last day of the trip, it will be our shopping day to get presents for family and friends.

After our breakfast, we headed back to the hotel room to change. Wifey will be wearing his New Urban Male pink tank top which makes him looks very sexy and hot. I will be wearing my singlet as the weather is very warm and hot outside. Before we head out, we booked a full-body massage service from the hotel in the evening which is supposed to help us relax before our flight home.

Shopping is a really tiring exercise to do. Plus the hot weather, we were basically sweating away. There are still a lot of things to buy as we have not gotten presents for his gerlfriends Yazid, Izwan, Sri, and a few of his classmates. Me on the other hand have not gotten any gifts for my mother and siblings. We basically took the whole day to get all the presents and we really walked all around the possible shopping places near to our hotel to compare the prices. Wifey managed to get a really nice Mooks bag for himself and also a couple of nice Rip Curl t-shirts. I got myself one t-shirt as I don’t really feel the need to get myself anything (my wife always comes first to me). We also managed to get Yazid a t-shirt, Izwan a lanyard and nice tops for two of wifey’s classmates. For Sri, we got her a Stussy handbag for her upcoming birthday. For my family, we got coffee powder, and also got other gifts for all colleagues at DKA.

We took breaks in between the shopping spree so rest in the hotel as well as to take a nice dinner in Bali along with ice-cream breaks. Managed to have my favourite glass noodles and also went for the massage we booked earlier. The massage is super nice. The room is cozy and can take two persons at the same time. Both of us enjoyed and massage as it totally took away the strains we had from the shopping and past day’s activities.

Finally, time to pack the our luggage and get ready to head to airport. Was conned of some money as I hailed a cab without asking for the price to airport first (I don’t speak their language) but wifey managed to bargain for a reasonable con-rate at the end. There is a held up at the airport as well with the Lion-Air stewardess arriving late accompanied with bad serving attitude and service in the plane. We are glad to get off the plane but we miss Bali badly already just moments leaving there. Bali will definitely be a place me and wifey revisit once we save enough money.

"I have a really wondeful honeymoon, thanks to my wifey Shaari."

"I love you, my Princess Shaari."

Hubby Roger