Few days ago, while on msn with wifey, I noticed that wifey's msn had no picture of himself. When asked, he mentioned that he was looking through the pictures and want to change it to a nicer one. Then he said that he wanted to choose a picture of us and put it up to tell everyone I am his hubby.
No one can guess or know the feeling I felt when I read on msn what he said. I was totally happy and felt really appreciated and treasured. Anticipated for the picture to upload and keep wondering which one will he choose.
Two days later, after logging on to msn and initiated a conversation with wifey, I noticed that the msn pic he put up is himself. I asked him about our pic and all I got is "hehehe" and a smiley face. My feeling at that time :"Kill me instead"
Days later again, I borrowed car from brother at night and thus get to keep it till next day which happens to be a sunday. Thus, me and wifey went gym at one george st. After that, we head to chinatown as he wanted to see sexy underwear to wear for me. We bought a new jockstrap for him.
We proceed to have lunch and head to my place since he had not visited my mum for a long time. Although we are at my place, we remain in my room. I did not expect him to talk to mother as he is still new to the family. Well, there is more privacy in my room anyway and he tried on the jockstrap we just bought.
I was very very aroused since I had not make love with him for some time and he is really turning me on. However, things become anti-climatic when he told his mum that he will be home soon as he was at the tampines interchange. And this was said before he enter my house. Thus, we did not have any fun. My mood was really getting to the edge.
That same night while on msn I totally just feel upset. It is almost like a quarrel with wifey when he noticed about my unhappiness and probe me to tell him why. It is really stupid cos I know I love him a lot and these stupid arguements will cause both of us unhappiness.
I am only human, as much as wifey wanted attention and love and trust, I also need that affirmation from him. It may be only a small thing but it is the small things in life that makes things more memorable. At that moment, putting up a pic in his msn of us is something I felt appreciated and he never do it when he said he will. Making time for love-making is another thing I felt important. I really felt un-satisfied for a long time.
I really don't know what I should do as telling wifey all these and elaborating more of my feelings just kind of make me feel like I am over demanding. But how about my needs?? Who is going to really satisfy my needs? Wifey is trying, and I know, but is this going to go on like that? I do not know when is the time that we can make-love without him feeling painful halfway. As much as i try to satisfy him, I need him to satisfy me too. Afterall, he is going to be the one and only man that I entrust my love to. I can't make love with others, even if people says using condom is safe. I do not want to endanger him in any way and cause him any suffering. Guess there is nothing much I can do to improve this situation.
"Wifey Shaari, You are the One and Only person I will Make-Love to cos I really Love You."
Hubby Roger
