14th November 2008
This is supposed to be a good day for me since I am going to meet the love of my life a.k.a. Wifey Shaari. However things did not turn out as well as I had planned to have on this day. Today, I had an appointment with my clients at the clinic for their tattoo removal session in the afternoon at 3.00pm. After the appointment I am free to go and thus had arranged earlier with wifey to go for a walk together and catch dinner.
Well, things turn out well for the start and I managed to catch wifey at Bugis early. We even catch the movie Madagascar II together. It was a nice movie, full of jokes and laughter throughout even though the drawings of the animals are kind of sucky to me. After the movie, we were both hungry and we walked around Bugis discussing what to have for dinner. We chanced upon two possible choices, either the dinner buffet of Nonya food or the Chinese noodles stall next to it where lots of people are eating the delicious smelling wanton noodles.
It was not an easy choice and I do not like to make my choice to what I like (prefer wanton noodles) as I can see wifey seem to prefer the Nonya buffet. Thus, I throw the responsibility of the choice to wifey. Well, wifey can’t decide also thus we choose to walk around the area and see if we can spot a 3rd possible choice. We walked pretty far to the end of the street and sad to say, we did not managed to shortlist another good dinner location.
Was suggesting to wifey then to head back to the wanton stall for dinner and wifey started to say that it was a bit stupid to make him walked so far and so much and now want to go back there to eat dinner. As he was grumbling I tried to stop him by telling him to choose then where he prefers to have dinner. The worse of all started from here. Wifey did not hear me and so to get his attention I made a clap in front of his face to make him look at me. Well, I did not have any intention to embarrassed wifey at all with what I have done as my aim to get him to choose and not to ruin the night by complaining but somehow, he took it as a form of insult and was angry with me, thinking that he was embarrassed and lots of people looked at him when I clapped. I was also starting to get pissed off as all I wanted was to please him and yet my kind intention seems to be throw down onto the floor and stepped all over by him.
We started to walk off in a short distance. Me walked in the shelter while he on the road. We are not very far apart though, maximum 3 metres only. I walked with constant glances at him until the corner where I turn left to head for the wanton noodles stall and since I was in front a bit, I am not able to see if wifey followed me. I guessed he did as it's unlike him not to follow, and even if he does not follow he will call out to me to follow him. So I continued walking and when I am in front of the noodles shop, I waited there and looked around for him. 1 minute passed... 5 minutes passed... and wifey is no where to be seen. This is maddening to me so I walked back and see if he is standing by the intersection point waiting for me.
To my horror he was no where to be found. I am terrified as my mobile is dead (wifey knew) and the place is crowded. I started to walk back to the end point where we started the fight to look for him. I walked like about 5 to 6 times up and down the place frantically looking for wifey. I even walked to the other side of the road and make a big round (almost lose my way) back to the noodle shop hoping to find him. My eyes started to tear as I am freaking worried about wifey’s safety. Of course he is old enough to take care of himself but accidents can happen to anyone anytime. I also made my way to and fro the MRT station and noodle shop hoping to bump into wifey. I was really feeling worried. I found a coin phone and tried to get the coffee shop uncle to exchange coins with me so that I can make a call to wifey but that uncle refuses to change (now I started to hate his race more).
I kept walking around and found a vending machine where I bought a bottle of coke for S$1.70 so that I can get a change of one 10 cents coin to make a call to wifey. When I called him, I was worried and angry at the same time. Wifey was already on the train and reaching Tampines MRT station. I was really stunned and suddenly just feel like vomiting even though I had not taken dinner. I didn’t know what to think of say when I was deeply worried he was on his way home without a thought of me. I knew he wanted to explain something but I was not in the state to listen. I hang up the phone and walk away aimlessly without knowing where I was heading. My thoughts are really blank after I hang up the phone. I just walked and walked like a soulless zombie until I breakdown and cried somewhere. After drying my tears, I hailed a cab home. During the trip back, the cab driver tried to have a conversation with me but I simply ignore and closed my eyes. How I wished that the driver can just drive me somewhere, kill me and dump my body somewhere not to be found.
When I finally reached home, I changed and sat in front of my PC thinking about my relationship with wifey. I started to wonder if I am even in his life. I do not understand how he can just dump me there and take train home by himself knowing I am not contactable, and worse no means to contact him. I just felt so miserable and lonely back in my room. I picked up my room phone and give him a miss call to tell him I am home just in case he is worried. Wifey called back later and when I hear his voice I break into tears again. Even though he apologized many times and tried to explain what went on, my mind just cannot take in anything. Most of the time wifey just talked and apologized. I heard his voice but that's all I can hear... his voice...
This is supposed to be a good day for me since I am going to meet the love of my life a.k.a. Wifey Shaari. However things did not turn out as well as I had planned to have on this day. Today, I had an appointment with my clients at the clinic for their tattoo removal session in the afternoon at 3.00pm. After the appointment I am free to go and thus had arranged earlier with wifey to go for a walk together and catch dinner.
Well, things turn out well for the start and I managed to catch wifey at Bugis early. We even catch the movie Madagascar II together. It was a nice movie, full of jokes and laughter throughout even though the drawings of the animals are kind of sucky to me. After the movie, we were both hungry and we walked around Bugis discussing what to have for dinner. We chanced upon two possible choices, either the dinner buffet of Nonya food or the Chinese noodles stall next to it where lots of people are eating the delicious smelling wanton noodles.
It was not an easy choice and I do not like to make my choice to what I like (prefer wanton noodles) as I can see wifey seem to prefer the Nonya buffet. Thus, I throw the responsibility of the choice to wifey. Well, wifey can’t decide also thus we choose to walk around the area and see if we can spot a 3rd possible choice. We walked pretty far to the end of the street and sad to say, we did not managed to shortlist another good dinner location.
Was suggesting to wifey then to head back to the wanton stall for dinner and wifey started to say that it was a bit stupid to make him walked so far and so much and now want to go back there to eat dinner. As he was grumbling I tried to stop him by telling him to choose then where he prefers to have dinner. The worse of all started from here. Wifey did not hear me and so to get his attention I made a clap in front of his face to make him look at me. Well, I did not have any intention to embarrassed wifey at all with what I have done as my aim to get him to choose and not to ruin the night by complaining but somehow, he took it as a form of insult and was angry with me, thinking that he was embarrassed and lots of people looked at him when I clapped. I was also starting to get pissed off as all I wanted was to please him and yet my kind intention seems to be throw down onto the floor and stepped all over by him.
We started to walk off in a short distance. Me walked in the shelter while he on the road. We are not very far apart though, maximum 3 metres only. I walked with constant glances at him until the corner where I turn left to head for the wanton noodles stall and since I was in front a bit, I am not able to see if wifey followed me. I guessed he did as it's unlike him not to follow, and even if he does not follow he will call out to me to follow him. So I continued walking and when I am in front of the noodles shop, I waited there and looked around for him. 1 minute passed... 5 minutes passed... and wifey is no where to be seen. This is maddening to me so I walked back and see if he is standing by the intersection point waiting for me.
To my horror he was no where to be found. I am terrified as my mobile is dead (wifey knew) and the place is crowded. I started to walk back to the end point where we started the fight to look for him. I walked like about 5 to 6 times up and down the place frantically looking for wifey. I even walked to the other side of the road and make a big round (almost lose my way) back to the noodle shop hoping to find him. My eyes started to tear as I am freaking worried about wifey’s safety. Of course he is old enough to take care of himself but accidents can happen to anyone anytime. I also made my way to and fro the MRT station and noodle shop hoping to bump into wifey. I was really feeling worried. I found a coin phone and tried to get the coffee shop uncle to exchange coins with me so that I can make a call to wifey but that uncle refuses to change (now I started to hate his race more).
I kept walking around and found a vending machine where I bought a bottle of coke for S$1.70 so that I can get a change of one 10 cents coin to make a call to wifey. When I called him, I was worried and angry at the same time. Wifey was already on the train and reaching Tampines MRT station. I was really stunned and suddenly just feel like vomiting even though I had not taken dinner. I didn’t know what to think of say when I was deeply worried he was on his way home without a thought of me. I knew he wanted to explain something but I was not in the state to listen. I hang up the phone and walk away aimlessly without knowing where I was heading. My thoughts are really blank after I hang up the phone. I just walked and walked like a soulless zombie until I breakdown and cried somewhere. After drying my tears, I hailed a cab home. During the trip back, the cab driver tried to have a conversation with me but I simply ignore and closed my eyes. How I wished that the driver can just drive me somewhere, kill me and dump my body somewhere not to be found.
When I finally reached home, I changed and sat in front of my PC thinking about my relationship with wifey. I started to wonder if I am even in his life. I do not understand how he can just dump me there and take train home by himself knowing I am not contactable, and worse no means to contact him. I just felt so miserable and lonely back in my room. I picked up my room phone and give him a miss call to tell him I am home just in case he is worried. Wifey called back later and when I hear his voice I break into tears again. Even though he apologized many times and tried to explain what went on, my mind just cannot take in anything. Most of the time wifey just talked and apologized. I heard his voice but that's all I can hear... his voice...
“Wifey Shaari, I Love you."
Hubby Roger
